In a week Jensen will be turning 4. A big whole whopping 4.
I honestly can’t believe how fast things have gone, how much he has grown and how much he has changed our lives.
When you fall pregnant everyone tells you how things will be, how a person will change but you never quite believe it. You never really see it for what it is. I think this last year I have only just realized how being a parent has changed me, how it has made me so much stronger, how my heart can love unconditionally, how my heart can break constantly and how much love can heal.
I am honestly petrified of Jensen turning 4. I am petrified that something is going to go wrong, that he is going to get hurt in a way that we can’t recover from. I don’t think I will ever survive another incident like last year.